Hey guys, it's Vim...and it's my birthday! I turn 24 today :)
I started the day off at 1:30 in the morning by going to the gym. I thought about taking it easy and not having a session today, but I want my birthday to represent how I will be moving in the grand age of 24 by being active, efficient, and disciplined. At least that's what I'm hoping to Lol. I then went home and slept. I woke up at around 9:30 AM, took a shower, and went on my way to Starbucks. I ordered a matcha with ube cold foam, because Filipino. I finally finished reading the introduction to The Odyssey translated by Emily Wilson, which was 100 PAGES. I get that I needed context for certain things, and it was entertaining, it's just unbelievable I've read so much but haven't even started the story 😭(wow I just found out I can insert emojis).
Star is here. She seems more stressed/tired today than usual. Sadly, I think today cemented the fact that Star doesn't really see me as a person of interest. I know it's an off day for her because she's not acting her usual self, but just the aura is different. Kinda disappointed me because I dressed up a bit nicer today too, so I was imagining stupid situations of her noticing me. Maybe it's because I'm not seeing things through rose-tinted glasses. I still find her attractive, both in personality and looks, but no connection, you know. I definitely felt it when I tried talking to her earlier; I just felt nothing. So I think the Star saga ends here. I'll still mention her here and there, just because we interact often. Maybe my feelings will change.
Speaking of glasses, I got reading glasses yesterday to make reading books more convenient. So the way I got these glasses is a bit of an odyssey itself (hehe). So I want to buy this book called White Nights by Fyodor Dostoevsky. It's a story of unrequited love, which is what I felt about Star, so I wanted to buy it. Despite its popularity, it's not available in any of my nearby bookstores except for one expensive version that was 40 minutes away 😭. So being a man of action, I drove all the way there, wasting the remaining gas left in my car. So once I got there, as a man of doubt, I started second-guessing because for this tiny little deluxe pocket version of the book is $18...your boy is not supported by the U.S. Treasury. So in cases like these, I go back to the old reliable, a coin toss. Except not a physical coin, but a digital version offered by Google. I decided heads would be to buy the book, because I'm in delusion with this unrequited feeling, and tails would be to leave. As decided by fate, it landed on tails. I, being in denial because I essentially just wasted gas for nothing, decided that if the next 3 tossups are heads, I will buy the book. Out of the 3 tossups, only 1 time was it heads 🫠. So yeah, I took my pitiful ass out of the bookstore, to my car, and did the drive of shame to 7/11 to fuel up. Afterwards, I drove straight to my usual Starbucks (45-minute drive btw) to do some schoolwork so I wouldn't be stressed too much on my birthday. While bathing in shame as I was driving, the memory of watching an Instagram reel about this influencer who wanted to get into books popped into my head. The idea of reading glasses stuck, so I decided to stop by Walmart to see if they had any. They did, so I researched which magnification would be best, and got them. They do help with eye strain and have made reading more enjoyable. So yeah, thanks, random Instagram influencer. When I got to the Starbucks, still sad about wasting time and gas/money, Star wasn't even there to feed my delusions :(
Speaking of glasses again, I did see Evelina, the coworker who asked to hang out, but didn't respond. I'd say the interaction was okay; we're both adults. She explained that my contact was in the section of iMessage where unsaved contacts go. It made sense, but she found out and therefore could've messaged me back. She said that she felt awkward and wanted to talk to me directly about it, which is fine. I told her to just message me whenever she's free, so I put the ball back in her court. So far, no message has been received from her. Speaking of no glasses, I did interact with this coworker whom I've found pretty for a while, and who doesn't wear glasses, unlike the other two. Let's call her Judy. Judy's Filipino too, so I tried using that as a reason to talk. Which it did, albeit a little awkward because I was nervous and she's more introverted compared to the others. I don't think much development will happen with her since she's dayshift and I don't see her often.
So, finally, about my birthday Lol. I don't really have anything planned. After writing this post, I'm gonna try to see what's available to do that's cheap and not too far. I'm thinking an aquarium, zoo, or a museum. Some of that third space shit people online always rave about. I do want to watch that new movie with Zendaya and Robert Pattinson, called The Drama. I should watch it tomorrow because it's discount Tuesdays and Wednesdays at AMC, but it's my birthday, so fuck it. Speaking of raves, I am going to a rave on the 11, and I'm planning to be white girl wasted, because your boy has been stressed to the 10s. I'm thinking of going to Jollibee too, because it's the Mecca for Filipinos, and they say to eat noodles for a long and healthy life, so I'm gonna get the Palabok alongside burgersteak, chicken, and rice Lol. My mom even made Filipino spaghetti, in the spirit of long life and good health Lol.
I started reading a second book called How to Read Literature Like a Professor by Thomas C. Foster. I struggle seeing the big picture of things, especially readings, so I picked that up at Goodwill to help out. You can see my current state of affairs on a new page of the blog called now. It was stolen inspired by other blogs I've visited to spice mine up a bit. I'll update it whenever I check the site to see if I got hacked or not 🫠. Gas is $4.27 and only headed up as we speak; the sky is blue and grass is green.
I think I've written a good amount. I feel like I've splurged my heart out enough. Don't worry, I'm still thinking of the post elaborating on my 4-year relationship as a gift to you guys, so don't think I've forgotten.
Thank you for everything! -Vim